A song that unlocked my big feelings
I was just scrolling, minding my own business, you know? Then a clip of Jessica Sanchez's America's Got Talented audition popped up on my Facebook feed.
She's auditioning for a show...again? was my first thought. My curiosity was piqued, so down the rabbit hole I went โ first to YouTube so I can watch it in high res, then to search for the lyrics, since I've heard that chorus from countless reels and tiktoks. Finally, I found the original artist, hit play and oh my God, I started crying.
Was it resonance? Yes. I could practically taste the desperation in the lyrics. The fear of loss was sharp. The chorus hit me like hot liquid poured over a meticulously constructed shell, exposing my sensitive anxieties.
When I heard the line, "But I know the things He gives me He can take away," that was when the tears started to flow.
Because that's so true, isn't it? We can design our lives a certain way, take care of our loved ones and work towards our dreams...but ultimately, control is an illusion. Even if you do not believe in God or a higher power, it is a universal truth.
There's no winning against the unforeseen, and that realization can be an overwhelming feeling of deafeat.
The only silver lining we can hold on to is, at least we have this one life, this one opportunity to thoroughly enjoy what we have, and savor the beauty the world offers.
And that should be is enough.